The Healthy Life #1
hello lovelies, today its another quite different and a bit more personal post for you. i have been mentioning over on my instagram and my sunday mood series here that i have been switching up my eating habits and i want to share that journey with you. eating habits, weightloss and growing your confidence can be a tough topic to talk about and it certainly isn’t the easiest for me but i feel like i’m finally at a good place to talk about is especially since i’m working on it now. its never too late, not even when you’re 23 and also not fo you’re 15 or 40.
i don’t remember ever being happy with myself. ever. even when i was a kid. i always thought i was too small and weight too much and always thought my stomach wasn’t flat enough even though i was a completely normal child. the only thing i always liked was being active. i did dancing, gymnastics and competetive riding but i was never really confident with myself. it got even worse when i was a young teenager and me being a late bloomer, i had a very low self esteem being surrounded by girls who seemed to be so confident with who they were, they were brave enough to wear makeup, pretty clothes and had boyfiends. something i thought would never happen to me. i gained weight in my early teenage years, probably because of hormones and because i turned to food when i wasn’t happy and i was beyond upset. i signed up to a gym, worked out almost daily and changed my eating habits. i lost all the weight i had put on but it spiraled into me dealing with my eating and i, infact, lost so much weight that i was underweight and dealt with and eating disorder. something that still is in me but very much burried down. it took me years to overcome it but i never gained my confidence back.
why i decided to change
i feel like i’ve gained some weight in the past year which is probably because i had some struggles with my stomach due to my birth control and some other factors and most food i couldn’t eat. when i finally was able to do so again, i did and obviously put on weight because i’m not blessed with a super fast metabolism. i don’t own a scale because of my struggles with an eating disorder but i felt more and more uncomfortale, my clothes were getting tighter and i felt very sluggish and just not happy so one night, after being massively inspired by my mum who stepped up her diet and workout game and looks just brilliant, i decided its time to do something. my struggles with my body have consumed me all my life and i just want to be happy with myself, enjoy the summer, be happy in a swimsuit or a nice dress. confidence does not come with being a certain size at all but for me it does and it is what i want to work on.
my journey so far
despite me having lost weight now and toned up, i don’t weight myself, i measure myself. so i started educating myself about food and workouts and what i can do to get rid of the pounds i’m not happy with in a healthy way and i joined an online programme which is 12 weeks but can be extended for as long as you please. as i always loved working out, i just slightly changed my routine. i’m still doing it 3 times per week but i included more body weight exercises and hiit cardio (not the biggest fan but it works) but a workout only is 30% of your journey. 70% is what you put into your body. i’m currently on a slow carb diet which means allowing myself good and whole carbs in the morning, such as oats, rye or dark bread and thats it. throughout the day i eat carb free. loads of veggies and protein and a little bit of fruit. no sugars, no fast food. i have one cheat day a week and thats it.
it might sound hard but actually its not and i haven’t felt this good in years. i feel way more energized, productive and fully satisfied. i feel light if that makes sense. when i have some grilled salmon and salad for lunch i feel so greatly fueled but not heavy and sluggish which is how i felt when i had a pasta dish. its unreal. my skin is flawless and i just feel so good about myself and i have no craving as know i can enjoy a bit of ice cream on my cheat day, which i like to call treat day. i don’t feel the need to go crazy when i treat myself. i eat my normal diet but maybe add some pasta in with my lunch and have a chocolate bar when i want. i never ever thought it would be so easy and i saw my body changing so quickly. i have lost almost 10 cm at my hips and waist and its just unreal. the mom jeans i’m wearing today were tight when i bought them and now i could easily go for a size down, maybe even two…its just unreal.
what works for me might not work for everyone and i’m aware of that. everyone is different and has different goals but whatever you’d like to change about you, you can. its your body and your life. it might not be easy but its worth it and i’m here with you. i’m working with you and i’m working on myself so i can hopefully one day say, i’m confident being me.