hello my loves. i actually wanted to do my weekly sunday mood today but i can't. on friday my macbook broke and probably died a very sad death after almost 5 years of working without a doubt. i cried so many tears and even though its just a laptop but it literally has all my stuff on it. pictures from previous holidays, photos i wanted to use for blogposts and all my uni work. great. so i'm taking it to the apple store on monday in hope that something can be done to it. for now, i'm typing away on my boyfriends laptop. so please be patient with me and i hope i can be back asap...hopefully with my old macbook...i don't want to buy and new one.
Shit: Zara // Jeans: Primark // Shoes: Primark // Bag: Primark // Lipstick: Kevyn Aucoin Matte Lip Cream in Forever
1. love your family
I know i'm beyond lucky to have such a great family around me and they always, always support me and show me so much love but are also true and real with me. after all, family is what is left and i learned to just make time for family only times and is just so good for the soul.
2. one amazing friend is better than 10 who don't care
i wear my heart on my sleeve and want to please everyone and i always thought more friends mean being a better person and that is just not true at all. now, i have a few very close friends who i can count on no matter what and i know they will be with me through good and bad times.
3. cut out toxic people
as i said, i'm a people pleaser. through some very hard times friendship wise which included me being blamed for my blog, i decided it was about time to surround myself with good people only. the ones who are honest and supportive and don't cause any drama and it has been one of the best decisions ever.
4. work hard
uni had been a challenge for me after school basically being a walk in the park for me and i truly learned to go the extra mile and work hard. sometimes you just need to get your shit together and do what is needed to do in order to create the life you want to lead. life will always require some hard work at times and its worth it. it can't always be easy.
5. do what you love
besides working hard you should ultimately do things you love doing. one of the things i ultimately love is this blog and my youtube channel. truly one of the best things i ever decided to do. it brought me so much joy and is something i just can't imagine not doing anymore. its just one of the best parts of my life.
6. worry less
besides being a people pleaser i'm also a worrier. i always think everything might go wrong, i might not be good enough, i might never get to where i want to be and its bad. it takes away my joy so many times and its quite hard to get out of that habit but i'm working on it, small steps.
7. live in the moment
i tend to be nostalgic or rather already be two months ahead than sitting in the moment and just enjoying the time that is just happening which means little things, good times and a smile from a stranger get unnoticed and thats not great. live today, live the second to make it all worth it.
love is what makes us and created us and showing loved and being loved might be one of the best things in life. its worth showing and feeling. not only for a partner, its worth loving your friends, your family and your dog. just love.
life is worth celebrating and no, you don't need to throw a party everyday but celebrate your achievements and every holiday out there even if its jut by buying yourself an easter egg, putting on christmassy socks or go out for a drink with your best friend when you passed that god damn exam you have been studying for for weeks.
10. love yourself
self love is something i have to work on myself but being able to love anyone else for life starts with loving yourself. even if its just one feature about you. pamper yourself, dress yourself in the clothes you want to wear, take time to go shopping by yourself or just have an afternoon to yourself. its very much worth it.
11. dream and dream big
i'm a true dreamer sometimes and just colour in the life i want to have in my head. in the brightest colours. i think theres no valid reason why you and i shouldn't do that. why not dream of the chanel handbag you will be getting one day, why not think about the kids you want to have, the places you want to travel to? it makes me want to reach my goals even more and makes me work even harder.
12. hangovers get worse over time
when i was 16/17 i was able to drink my own body weight basically and woke up the next morning feeling fresh as a daisy. those days will pass, for sure. since i gave up alcohol at 19 i noticed it getting worse back then which was one of the many reasons why i gave it up and now i see my boyfriend suffering for a whole day after going to the football...not worth it.
13. healthy food is just better
my family has been eating very healthy all my life and i grew up with what i called "my organic mum" and even though i used to be upset that she wouldn't take me to mc donalds, i now love what my parents taught me about food. cooking healthy meals for myself is fun to me and makes me feel way better than the very occasional crap food i have.
14. have a pet
i also grew up with having pets. my family always had cats and dogs and my sister and i pretty much had every pet you could think of and they just benefit your life. we own a cat and i couldn't imagine life without my little ball of fur. he is just joy and happiness and it truly makes my heart so full having him. pets are just great.
in my life i was lucky enough to travel quite a lot to various different places and its just beautiful and so eye opening. i feel like you learn to respect other peoples cultures and its also a lot of fun and will make you aware of life out of your comfort zone and ultimately, its great fun. traveling doesn't need to be with a back pack in asia, it can be a city trip, a little get away to the coast.
16. be offline
as much as i love being online, the real life happens away from the screen and i just like having time without my phone in sight. me and my friends also have a rule of no phones at the table when we meet and my boyfriend and i usually don't have our phones with us when we are eating or just catching each other up and it helps so much.
17. talk it out
life means getting upset about things. maybe someone didn't treat you the way i want to be treated and most of the times people don't do it to upset you. so i learned to directly talk to people when i feel upset and it is the way to go. do it in a respectful way and just in a one to one conversation.
18. feel the feelings
as much as its always preached online, life isn't always sunshine and happiness and sadness, disappointment and anger are part of it. feel those feelings. they aren't bad and they won't hurt you. obviously it can be but most of the times its life so allow yourself to be sad when something sad happens and you will be able to deal with it much better.
19. the birth control pill is crap
i could do a whole post on that and i surely will but the pill is just bad. it damaged me so bad and i can't believe why its given to young girls especially when there are more options. i'm so glad i'm not on it anymore and i probably won't be ever again.
20. law is hard
i didn't really decide to go to law school and did not think it through as i was 19 when i decided to do it and i sometimes think i would have picked something else if i could start again. law is hard, bloody hard but its weirdly satisfying and rewarding and i know it will be worth it...if i get through it without loosing my shit.
21. have faith
i never really thought i would truly believe in god even though i grew up in a christian family but i do. i truly do and its lovely and its something i feel very comfortable with. faith and religion is up to everybody and i would never judge anyone on their faith.
22. no one has a perfect life
so many people including me want their life to seem perfect and just right but guess what, no ones life is. we all have things to deal with, fears and worries and no one should ever feel bad for that. my life is far from perfect and i love it still.
23. take time for hobbies
i have always been very involved and active all my life and love doing things in my free time and i'm so happy i picked up many hobbies over time. i love working out, riding, photography, baking, reading and everyone should have time for hobbies and take time to do them. it creates the perfect balance in life.
lets start this sunday mood of with wishing you, your family and your loved ones a happy and blessed easter. enjoy your 4 day weekend and have some chocolate treats, healthy eating can start after easter again. this weekend is not only easter weekend its also my birthday weekend. i turned 23 on the 15th and it was such lovely day. breakfast in bed, tea and cakes with the family and a proper birthday party next week. i can't wait and i'm still in a total birthday awe and i will surely have some of my leftover birthday cake tonight as a special treat. also, thank you for the lovely birthday wishes over on twitter and instagram, it truly made my day so much better and put huge smile on my faces which still lasts.
what i did
the past week has been quite hectic. we took care of one of my parents dog whilst the older one was with my grandparents. it was lovely but it also involved us going on many walks daily and stepping outside at 6.30 am in my pjs to let the dog out. because my parents weren't there i also took care of my mums office and handed in my uni work i have been dealing with since february. a huge relief to say the least. right after i started my private classes to prepare me for my finals next year and it was so overwhelming, literally like starting a show in season 4 episode 7...lovely. besides much work i also had such a beautiful week with my boyfriend. he totally fell in love with the idea of having a dog and i just loved preparing for my birthday.
what i didn't do
youtube because this week has been filled up but thats fine, i have a lot videos planned which i van hopefully film next week.
what i ate
besides birthday cake which always is fantastic i have been obsessed with roasting potatoes in the oven with olive oil, garlic and herbs and its just insanely good. so filling and yummy and with a nice salad on the side it makes the perfect meal.
what i want to do next week
my term starts again next week but since i only have to take 2 classes this term its not too busy but obviously i have my private classes alongside. i also want to get my birthday party prepared and establish my workout routine. i have been loving being back at the gym and i also want to film a few videos and truly get back into the swing of things.
one word to describe the past week
spring is truly here in germany. it always takes a bit longer here for the trees to get green again and since i had enough of all the greyness around, I'm soaking it all up. it literally looks like its getting greener by the hour and to top it all off, trees are in full bloom which has to be my favourite thing ever. as soon as the sun appears warmer and the days longer i get so much more motivated to actually do things and i like planning ahead. because i really want to make the most of this year i came up with 5 things i want to do this spring. sometimes i get overly excited about all the thing i'd love to do and in the end i don't do them at all so hopefully this post will remind me of just that.
make flower crowns myself
i absolutely adore flower crowns and have been for years. even though i never actually been to a proper festival, i love wearing them because they just are so beautiful and fairy like. besides loving them for years i never actually made one myself and i just imagine if to be so much fun. i might do it for my bithday party and if that doesn't happen i will just make one for myself because you don't need an occasion to do something you love.
visit the rhododendron park
if you are an instagram lover like myself, you might have seen many instagramers take a picture of the bridge which looks like a perfect circle with the reflection on the lake it goes over. its actually located in a park about two hours away from where i live and i have been dying to go. me and my boyfriend imagine it to be extra pretty in spring so we surely will make our way out there.
have a barbecue
who doesn't love a good barbecue? even though i love them i don't really do many. our balcony would essentially be big enough so i don't really know why we didn't really do them but as soon as its getting warmer again i want to prepare a lovely one with loads of different salads and cold beer and obviously some lovely people.
film a lookbook
lookbooks are just some of my favourite videos to watch ever. they are just so fun and i feel like you can really go all out with the editing. even though i'm just not really too comfortable within myself, i still want to do it just because i love dressing for spring and the current fashion is just all i want in life ever. obviously i would love to do it even more if you would like to see it too.
its finally my birthday on april 15th and i can't wait. i will have quite a relaxing day with my family on my actual birthday and will have a lovely birthday party with my friends the week after. i think i mentioned before that i used to never really do much for my birthday and only picked that habit up over the past years. to me, its worth it and i wouldn't want to do it any other way.
what about you? do you have any plans for spring already? let me know so i can add a few more on my list and hopefully make this season even more special.
getting new high end makeup might be one of my favourite things to do. its just the excitement about a new and lovely products and it surely is a treat and something i always look forward to. i do love myself a little drugstore splurge sometimes but i probably own more high end makeup items because i love them and they have been working very well for me. one of my favourite high end brands has to be nars. nars does my favourite ever foundation and everything else i have tried i just loved. there are so many more makeup bits from nars i would love to try and some that have been on my wish list for ages and i decided to take the plunge and got my paws on some new nars items.
new, new, new
as some of you may know, nars sheer glow is the best foundation in my eyes and i have been getting it for years. i usually use the shade mont blanc but recently it started looking odd. a bit too light and pinky so i went for the more yellow toned shade which is gobi and it looks amazing. the match actually is better for me know and i will probably always use this foundation for the rest of my life.
recently i have really been getting into tinted moisturizers and lighter coverages and since nars provides my favourite foundation i got the pure radiant tinted moisturizer in alaska. everything that says radiant is high on my list. i know wish i went for one shade lighter but since the sun has been out more i know i will be fine with the shade. its super light and so comfy to wear and actually makes me look so radiant and awake.
now, i love everything radiant and glowy and obviously love all the highlighters around. however, i haven't really dipped my toes into liquid highlighters and i wanted the nars liquid illuminator in copacabana for ages. its the perfect pink champagne and just great for very fair skin. a little bit goes a long way and i just feel so glowy and perfect when i have it on.
so here we are. some new in nars bits. have you tried any of them? what do you think? please let me know.
what a lovely and sunny sunday it is. after a rather grey week i have been soaking up all the rays of sunshine which decided to show up yesterday. i feel so motivated and happy as soon as its sunny and lovely outside but i feel a bit guilty to sit at my desk inside and typing up this post when i would much rather be outside. since i'm having my mums dog for a week i already had a morning walk so i don't feel as bad. so, in this weeks sunday mood i want to apologize for not being most active the past week. everything got in the way and i was super busy all week long. even though i had some pictures ready i didn't really like them and i don't want to put anything up that i don't really enjoy. if i enjoy my content i feel you do too and yeah, i'm sorry but i will make up for it, i promise.
what i did
i feel like the past week was a true errand week. i got back to the gym and loved it even though my trainers i've had for year started rubbing my heels and cut them open so my beautiful white trainers are now covered in blood...great. besides that i prepared for the little puppy and finishes up my uni work so i can hand it in on monday. to get a day to myself i had a lovely day shopping and catching up with one of my best friends which included some yummy vapiano. i also went to a concert in my old high school to see my sister preform and catch up with some of my old teachers and it was beyond lovely. on friday i got up at 4.30 am to take my parents to the airport to fly out to barcelona. so it was busy.
what i didn't do
blogging...and it did stress me out so bad. i just feel so bad when i don't stick to my schedule but at least i uploaded a video. also, i'm getting very frustrated with my instagram and i want to turn it around quite a bit so lets see how that goes.
what i ate
actually nothing too exciting buuuuuut i went to the grocery store and found plums called watermelon plums and they were the best thing i ever had. i think i wasn't the only one liking them because they sold out and i wasn't able to find them again...and i want them.
what i want to do next week
its actually my birthday week so a big yay for that. i'm literally so excited and happy. its easter and my birthday so thats a winner. besides getting ready for my birthday celebrations i want to have a week without uni work and i can't wait for that. since i have the dog i want to go for long walks and outfit shooting days because my lovely boyfriend is off work for two weeks. i'm excited.
one word to describe the past week
what i uploaded the past week