oh hello and welcome to 2019. it's a new year, a fresh start and a whole new story to write and experience. some might not be a huge fan of resolutions and clean starts on the 1st of January but I certainly am. I love setting goals, reminiscing about the good and also bad times I have had and focusing on something new to come. 2018 has been so bright and I had the highest highs in a long time but I was also in my darkest and fell really low.  it was the best of both. light and darkness and a great learning curve. I feel like I grew up, sort of, and figured out who I want to be and what I want to dedicate my life to. I can't wait to turn my ideas into reality and hopefully collect as many memories along the way as I can. Here is to the new and a new story to write but first, let's look back on 2018.






the highs

01. there will always be people who travel more or less or just different than I do but I feel like in 2018 I saw so many new places and traveled around Europe as well as doing a fair few day trips to explore around me. from London to Nice and Monaco and back to London as well as a Summer spent in Sweden and Denmark, it made me once more thankful to live in Europe and am surrounded by so many different countries, cultures and beautiful places to explore. We also did our best to appreciate our surroundings by exploring castles, nature and different cities all around. it has been a beautiful year to go explore and travel.

02. spring. as simple as that. spring is one of my favourite seasons as it is and probably because it's my birthday and I can resist the fresh green all around as well as blooming trees and the first rays of warm sun. I had the warmest birthday all my life this year and due to heavy sunshine, the blooming cherry, apple, and magnolia trees were bigger and brighter than ever. I managed to capture so many of them this year and it made incredibly happy. I was one of the prettiest springs I have ever experienced. 






03. one of the things that made me the absolute happiest this year has to be this right here. my little blog on the internet. it's my main creative outlet and one of my biggest passions. I feel like I started getting a groove with my content and where I want to take things. I mixed in a good portion of fashion and lifestyle content with my love for beauty and it showed. the feedback I got from you guys was beautiful and I'm so happy with my content. this year I was able to land a few sponsored posts and being paid to do something I love so much just feels unreal. I can't wait to grow with my blog in 2019. it's my happy place.

04. friends. I was never one to have many friends or a huge group of friends. to be fair, I always struggled a bit to fit in and make proper friends since I am quite good on my own. this year, my friendship with a lovely group of friends grew stronger than ever. Its just what i have ever wanted. a group of beautiful and lovely ladies who understand and respect each other. we made amazing memories this year by going to the spa, going on nights out or just relaxed at each other flats. we rented a boat out in the summer for a whole day and ended the year with our friendmas celebrations. I just love them very dearly.







the lows

01. the year started out with a very dark time for me. I had to confess to myself that the course I was in at uni was never the one for me and that it deeply scared me. it was hard to admit that, especially since I was about to enroll in my exams to qualify to become a lawyer or judge. I took some time off to find myself and figure out what I truly wanted in life. I'm so thankful for my education and how smooth it was all the time but I just wasn't on the right track. I spend a lot of time crying and not knowing where to go but after a few months, I started realizing what it is I need to do and if everything works out, I can move into my dream career in 2019. 

02. mental health is always a big one for me and due to the hard times I had to go through, I struggled with anxiety a bit. it surely not as bad as other people experience it but it was horrible nonetheless. it just took such a toll on me and it made me quite unhappy. luckily, I have an amazing support system around me and I was able to feel better.






 a few more highlights

01. my boyfriend. he's my biggest rock and I'm thankful to have him and I hope we can spend many more years together.

02. my family. we are so close and it makes me incredibly happy to have them around me.

03. finding myself. I feel like I have been a bit lost in my early twenties and in my mind and I know feel like I'm on my way.

04. coming to terms with my faith and spirituality. its such a personal topic and I could talk about it more but I'm so happy about it.







how has your 2018 been? let me know your highlights and I hope you are ready for 2019 too. thank you so much for your support and love the past year. it means the world.

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with the pre-Christmas stress hitting hard and the last deadlines to meet, I often forget to truly enjoy this very beautiful time of year and hardly ever tick all the things off my to do list I intended to do. there's always a million more things I have to finish. also, with the days getting shorter, it feels like days can't be used to their full potential. christmas is my favourite time of the year and I think just December is to short for all my festive feels which means there's no other option than making the most of every second I have.
The past Decembers have been beautiful for sure but due to many other factors as my education and work schedules, I hardly had time to enjoy December. this year, I was able to make a change in that and take a huge chunk of December and the festive period off work. probably one of the best decisions I have made so far this year. so in honour of that and because we all deserve some hours to truly enjoy the Christmas spirit, I thought I would share some very festive activities with you.




1. hot chocolate & festive films

I honestly would say I have quite a good taste when it comes to films but that goes all out the window as soon as Christmas hits. netflix has such a wide selection this year and even though most of them are super cheesy and you exactly know what's gonna happen, it's just so beautiful to cuddle up on the sofa with a blanket and just enjoy them. whilst the holiday will always be my firm favourite, I really have been loving the Netflix original ones and this year I will make it through all of them. the perfect treat to have with a beautifully cheesy Christmas film is some hot chocolate. I have been making the most delicious black forest hot chocolate and I will share the recipe with you for sure if you want me to.

2. see all the lights

nothing makes me happier than Christmas lights being put up and living in a big city means there are many beautiful displays but also privately decorated houses. every year, I like taking an afternoon out to drive around and see the prettiest ones in the city, as well as certain neighborhoods, were people go all out during this time of year. ku'damm always is one of my favourite places to see the lights. everything is decorated so perfectly with huge warm lights and it makes everything look so much more beautiful. it also makes the shorter days so much more bearable. they obviously also make for a perfect festive photoshoot which I just had to do. 




3. Christmas markets

there's no December without a Christmas market. it just makes me feel so festive wandering around little stalls with loads of products from small businesses, delicious and mostly very sugary food and a big mug of glühwein in hand. there are loads around where I live and over the years, I found real gems to visit. christmas markets might be a very obvious activity but you shouldn't miss out on it. going with friends as a weekend activity makes it even more special and it could also make a very sweet date night and its also a good opportunity to buy some presents.

4. Friendmas

whilst most of the actual Christmas celebrations are mostly spend with family, I also love celebrating with my friends and creating traditions around the holidays just for friends. we always meet on christmas eve after the gift exchanges and celebration with our families in our favourite bar but we also love doing a very cosy afternoon with food, drinks, and secret Santa. just some hours altogether without thinking about work. its just about enjoying each others company. its beautiful and i love it.




my outfit

jumper: primark
coat: stefanel
scarf: zara
skirt: h&m
boots: primark
bag: primark
hair clip: asos

location: ku'damm, Berlin, Germany

what about you? what are your favourite activities this time of year? please let me know.

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Christmas is all about being surrounded by loved ones and enjoying the calmness of this beautiful celebration. there's nothing like sitting around my parents' kitchen table with nothing but candles lighting up the room, drinking hot tea and just chatting or reading festive stories to each other. everything feels so warm and almost like time doesn't exist. it's looking back on the year we've had and dreaming about what's to come and just enjoying how cosy and homely everything feels with just a few candles, foliage, and fairy lights. I'm sure every family has their own traditions and I love talking and learning about them. whether is certain activities, foods or rituals, its what makes it so special to me.




1. A Christmas Tree for the Woodland Animals

a lot of men in my family were professors of forest science, took care of acres of woodland, planned and nurtured communal and private woodland and were all qualified huntsmen. its a family history I'm very proud of and even though being a huntsman and forest scientist can sound quite unusual and brutal. it's not at all. it's not about killing wildlife, it's about preserving it and making sure it flourishes. my granddad taught me so much about respecting and caring for nature and wildlife around us and how fragile it can be. he took me on long walks to observe the wildlife and one of my highlights was rescuing a baby fox and nursing it until it became big enough to be released again, when I was around 4 I came up with the idea to decorate a tree in the wood close to were my parents and grandparents live with food for the woodland animals so they can celebrate Christmas too. that's what we have been doing ever since. we use the same tree and bring apples, carrots, nuts, and seeds. its a tradition very close to my heart and I have shared it before. it was published in Tanya Burrs Christmas book and it makes me very proud.

2. Traditional Christmas Food

I'm german so we have our main gift-giving on Christmas Eve instead of Christmas day. traditionally, Christmas eve food isn't the big roast with loads of sides and a dessert too, its something rather easy to make so no one has to hide in the kitchen for too long and dinner can be relocated to the living room around the fire if we wanted to. we usually have various kinds of sausages, potato salad, bread, and butter as well as our traditional Christmas salad. a recipe that has been passed down for a few generations. my grandma and I prepare it together. its made with beetroot, potatoes, apples, nuts, beef, and pickles. it's so good and it just tasted like Christmas to me. I actually can't wait to have some around Christmas and because we always make so much that I basically eat it all the time around Christmas and although all ingredients are available all year round, I would never make it any other time.





3. Decorating my parent's tree

I love putting up the tree and I have to say that I probably have adopted a more international approach to decorating mine as I put it up a bit earlier and decorate it right away. all my family, however, decorate their trees on the 24th and keep them up into January. I always drive down to my parents early in the morning on the 24th to spend the entire day with them but also decorate the tree with my family. when I lived back at home, we would have old Astrid Lindgren films playing on the tv, still, in our PJs all decorating the tree with the same baubles, we have had for ages. my grandmother has been collecting china bells for the past decades with special yearly Christmas designs and its all the puts on her tree now. it's beautiful.

4. Christkind

there are various tales and traditions all around the world as to who brings the Christmas gifts and whilst most people grow up to believe its Santa, there are two different tales in Germany. you either believe in Santa or in christkind. she basically is an angel described and beautiful and kind with long gold hair and a long white dress and she brings presents to kids on Christmas eve. I grew up to believe she would come to my house. I also knew that santa must have been there too but he just wasn't gifting me and they were splitting the work apparently. its the tradition I have been growing up with and the one I will pass down to my kids too.




my outfit

Coat: Zara
Dress: Zara
Boots: Primark
Bag: Primark

Location: Königliche Gartenakademie, Berlin, Germany

what about you? what are your families traditions? please let me know and let's chat about everything Christmas.

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